We had just started out on our trip. It was before dawn and our route suddenly became very foggy. I felt myself tense up as I navigated the Jeep through dense fog and darkness. Rather than be concerned, Hunter exclaimed, "It looks like Heaven, Mom!"
|Hunter found Heaven on Earth|
I found myself relax almost instantaneously from the knowledge that God spoke through Hunter, reminding me that He's at the wheel. It was one of those humbling moments. A moment when my delusion that I'm in control of anything was shattered with the reality that there is a Higher Power in charge. The only thing I'm in control of is how willing I am to lean into my faith to find my center and focus as life throws me off balance.
I'm a person who has a lot of responsibility so it's hard for me to trust blindly and not try to take charge. Not only am I a parent of two beautiful children, which is daunting in itself, I'm also a manager of a team of people responsible for helping pursuit teams close multimillion dollar opportunities. I have to keep myself focused on keeping each member of that team competitive and attentive to the demands of our customers. I pride myself on being very good at my job. But this week, I had to let two members of my team know they would no longer have a job. I felt like I had failed in my ability to keep them gainfully employed.
I know that I had little say in how the decisions were made at the top of the company. Likewise, I know that I have little say in God's plan. As Hunter showed me, I have to remember to look at the situation from a different vantage point. Some may call it naive to think that in this economy those employees will actually have better opportunities in front of them. But I have to believe that's the case.
I have to believe that in the same way I believe in that Higher Power. I take great inspiration from my son and his old soul. He's a beautiful spirit looking at the world through the fresh eyes of a child and teaching me to do the same thing whenever possible. I'm going to hold my faith in a Greater Plan closer than ever during these challenging times.
Because what I've just learned from Hunter is that sometimes, when what I see in front of me is dark and murky, someone else sees Heaven.